I’m sitting in my mom’s room! Well Jess’s room for now. I can’t believe we’re here. It has been such a long day waking up at three in the morning! Both Jonathan and Anna were awesome. Honestly forget why they both came but I give them so much credit for waking up that early! Apparently they both fly a lot so are used to it. We had a great ride going over Jonathan’s last minute wisdom and hearing silly stories on how Jonathan’s brain goes nuts on coffie and pop and just yeah!
We got Dunkin doughnuts for breakfast smoothie and crosseant!
The flight was good. I felt the jarring movements of the plane more and didn’t like it much. I’m more sensitive to things like that since my breakdown. I wish the plane seat turned into a bed. But between Jonathan, Mr. J stuftie, and Jess’s shoulder I got a good amount of sleep. Took awhile to get over to where Dad and Krissy were but it was soo awesome when I heard them call out to us and got hugs!
Also a long walk to the car and usual forty minute ride, I’m so used to that now. I could even tell the turn into our driveway after all these years! Mom was outside to meet us. She walks kinda crooked and Krissy said she’s fragile as glass so I can’t knock her over but she actually isn’t that fragile. But anyway so yeah. Walked in and everything literally smelled and felt all the same as before. Most of the furniture was in the same place. Lucky got put in my arms and it was the best feeling ever. He of course was half asleep and so fell right back to sleep. Everyone said that meant he remembered me. I missed Toby and Simon and still do but it wasn’t as traumatic as it felt in my head. I think I was and still am overcome with excitement and just OMG I’m here.
We’re gonna gain so much weight just by our visit. We ate way more today than we do at Albany in three days! We had apple crisp. Went to Verizon. They were so patient and great there. Took a look at Jess’s phone and said the rice should be working and absorbing the water and it should actually be ok. Jonathan brought the rice this morning so I guess that’s the thing to do. Hard to believe it can recover from that.
We were really worried about getting my phone to work because the batteries were so dead. But this woman was soo patient and eventually after like a half hour got my contacts transferred. So that was a huge thing. Then we ran by Kmart. We got some clothes we needed, new headphones it was like Christmas! Then we came home and had lunch. Marcaroni and cheese and green beans and a brownie. Then we had a nap. Watched TV and generally chillaxed before having a big dinner. Mom did and sorted out all our laundry even though Jess did do it. I guess they wanted to make sure all the Albany germs were out which is actually a good thing.
I just kept saying how amazing it is to be here. Quiet. No pages, no yelling residents or slamming doors. Eating without waiting for crowded elavators or people totally zoned not even able to know how to walk around right. Just soo peaceful. Real food. Just everything OMG.
So we ate again an awesome dinner. I had a shower with lemon soap and apple shampoo and am now on the computer. It’s soo peaceful. Have talked to all my family about us wanting to move and they agree. Krissy even agrees about all the mental health resources that are in MA because she’s had friends that have needed them. Jess likes the woodsy type towns, like less away from the city with the trees. I have a feeling she’d like western MA I’m just not sure what things are out there I’d be interested in. I know they have peer support stuff and everything just don’t know about hotlines or other mental health resources I could volunteer with or cool people to connect with. This weekend is gonna be amazing for that! I’m just gonna talk to everyone and let them know what we’re trying to do and get their opinion. Because I know people from all over the state are gonna be there. I’m just ready to make it my mission to find out as much as possible.
But right now am getting really tired. So will probably just relax in my room soon. Every day probably is gonna feel really long but also amazing. Honestly a couple hours in I told Jess I didn’t want to go back to Albany at all. The first thing she said was we don’t have enough meds. Beyond that I remembered that my parents do have to sell the house and won’t be able to be in hosting mode for likely more than a week anyway. It’s just gonna kill me even more going back after I’ve been in a house that feels like a spa LOL
Speaking of my sister surprised even mom by having us get our toes and nails done like at a salon! Not that I’m really into that but it will save mom’s back and be an interesting treat. Will update you tomorrow. It can’t be going better